I guess for those of you who follow my blog, you will probably notice I have not been the most productive of late! I have to say things have really gone a little tits up in my life over the past few months! Not all in a negative way, but rather just life causing chaos and me falling out of sync with a lot of things; my blog being one of them.
So with the year coming to a close I thought it would be a good time to really look back at what has happened this past year (mainly the last few months), and try to refocus and develop a more organised head for the new year. So here goes…..
Thought it made sense to start with the most obvious change… Back in September I began working again part time as a nurse. It was a big step having been off with my daughter for a while, but a step I thought I was ready to make. Arya was booked into nursery whilst I was at work, which I knew would do her the world of good too!
Initially things were great! I found myself able to balance both my work life and my other commitments, such as my blog and etsy shop. However, another life changing event (which I will reveal later in this entry) caused things to go a little off! I also found the work more draining than I expected. Not mentally as such, but I was much more tried on my days off and wanted to relax rather than do much else! My personal dairy and Instagram pictures began to dwindle, and by December I have not planned anything neatly! I haven’t even decorated much which is so unlike me! All my tracking has gone completely off and I have found myself just going with the daily flow again, which I have found manageable, but I do realise how much I miss my planning! And I found I was almost missing some appointments that I shouldn’t have, had I been proactively planning.
Having said all this, things have finally settled. I absolutely love the job and feel like a valued member of the team. The contract is only temporary, but there is now potential scope for a permanent position in the future, so my fingers are crossed!
So I thought it would be worth raising this on a very personal note. As I hope you understand I won’t be going into great detail. However, back in October my fiancé found out about a big secret of mine which had a negative impact on our relationship. It caused quite a few arguments, and I realised what I stood to lose. It made me think long and hard about what I really wanted out of life, which of course is my wonderful man and family.
It has taken a while for us to work through our problems, but we are definitely getting there and have discussed how to make things better within our relationship. Though my secret led to hurt, during the process of talking we realised other aspects of our relationship that we could build on and that has only led to what I can consider a strengthening of our bond.
I will not lie, there is still a long way to go, and I know that my deceitfulness led to trust being broken which is going to take time to rebuild. But I know we are going to succeed, and still have plans to hopefully get married next year which I am very excited about!
I think the biggest thing I have learnt is that in order for relationships to really and truly work communication is key. And that is not just in the everyday things, but also in the bigger things. Telling each other that we love each other, and being there for each other when one of us has a bad day makes the world of difference. Being able to be open and honest about our feelings is really helping!
As I mentioned earlier, we received some news a few months back that was quite shocking for us both. We discovered I was pregnant! It happened a week after I started my new job too which I thought would make my work environment stressful, but actually they have been nothing but supportive.
So yes it was planned, however we only decided to start trying for a baby a few weeks earlier when my intention was to stay at home with our youngest daughter. Had my job been offered a few weeks earlier we probably wouldn’t have even started trying! Lol! But I guess that’s just how life works out some times!
So we have had our first scan, and was so pleased to know our little baby is currently happy and healthy. I am due on the 11th June 2017 and we will hopefully find out at the end of January what the sex of the baby is! There are lots of potential changes that will need to take place in our house dependant on the sex (ie. Reorganising kids bedrooms etc.) but we are not rushing too much.
Due to my daughter being so small (only 4lb 1oz) I have been placed under consultants care, which means I need to have a few more scans than most women once I get past the 28th week just to monitor growth. I don’t mind though because it means I get to see my new child that little bit more often so I’m quite happy.
Thankfully my morning sickness hasn’t been as bad with this pregnancy compared to the first which is nice. I have been able to notice the foods and drinks that are triggering the sickness and have started to avoid them. Ironically I can’t drink tea this time round, but have got back into black coffee! The sickness is still there, but it does feel like it is easing too which is nice.
I haven’t had any unusual food cravings yet, though I didn’t get any with my daughter either. I have enjoyed being able to pig out though over the Christmas period and being able to use the baby bump as an excuse! Ha!
So with everything going on with the new job and pregnancy etc, my etsy shop did take a bit of a back seat. I haven’t really given it the time or love that it deserved. And this clearly reflected in my orders as the business became quite slow. But I do hope to have a good look at my shop and get things updated ready for the new year!
I really would like to be more organised with my shop moving forward, especially now all other aspects of my life are starting to settle. I know when I will have some spare time to dedicate to my shop and so am going to make more of an effort to ensure this happens.
Well we all know this has not been great! Lol! But I do want to get back on my feet posting more often. I know when I will be writing posts and hope to be getting them done each week, with them scheduled for posting throughout the week….
I will be continuing with my plannerholic series, though the title for this has now changed to Planner Girls Collective (PGC). This will be regular posts on a Monday starting again in the new year. The schedule looks very interesting and has definitely given me plenty to think about! I am definitely looking forward to being involved! I am still getting used to the idea of writing bucket lists, and giving my opinions on some things, however writing this series is definitely helping with this!
Then I will also be posting at least once a week with something a bit more personal. I feel that 2017 will give me lots to talk about, especially with a daughter reaching the terrible twos and another baby on the way! Lol! I am also hoping to do some more adhoc personal pieces regarding up to date news features that catch my eye and that I have an opinion on.
If you have got this far thank you so much for sticking with me! I hope I haven’t bored you to death with my long ramblings! There isn’t really much more to say. As I have mentioned I completely lost touch with my diary, so do plan on giving it a massive overhaul this week and get a new planner set up ready for the new year. This will be shared in due course so do not fear. I also plan to get posting on Instagram a lot more again, and hope to be putting both personal and planner related stuff. If you want to follow me then please look me up @planwithhannah
I am definitely looking forward to the new year, and embracing all the changes going on in my life. It is going to be an interesting year and I look forward to taking you on my journey with me. If there is anything you would like me to discuss in the future then please do message me and I will do my best to answer any topic suggestions.